Alternate Ending

I still have no one to make love to
I still don’t have healthy food to eat
I still do not belong in the institutionalized world.
Where should I go now?
I still have not gotten the answer.
Maybe I have, but have become too afraid…
Give in to serving darkness as a slave?
Or leave it altogether in one last breath?
God has been taking my pain away,
But the pain is too great when it is all I see.
Saving?
Saving is a reoccurring event given by the light I serve.

Erica Borges