IM SCARED OF PREGNANCY AND BIRTHING!!! Is this some kinda disorder?? The thought of pregnancy alone sends chills down my body.... I don't even know if i love kids, but I loveeeeeee my friend's baby though, I don't know how to pamper kids or make them stop crying!!! Before my friend gave birth, I don't carry a child that's less than 3months(except the child is big) for fear that the child might slip from my hands but my friend's baby changed all that, I carry her(though I don't know how to play or say those mushy words that makes babies laugh),I just do some funny faces(very hard something) and the baby begins to laugh..... But once you start crying, I'll drop you!!!! Yesterday I was talking to my friend and her Mum and I said "Whenni get married, as soon as I get pregnant, the world should just come to an end", I don't even want the whole drama of Pregnancy and pushing, I'm soooooooooo scared of pain, just the way I'm extremely scared of heights.... My friend's Mum said it's a Mind Thing, is it true?? Will this fear leave me?? My friend said there's this strength that comes with Pregnancy, is it true?? I've been thinking since last night that I might not be normal ooooo, been so scared!!!
I can't even stand blood, I don't watch birthing scenes in movies(animals of humans), I don't read about it, I can't stand any discussion about the birthing process... When my friend was telling me about hers, I cringed and asked her to stop, it was scary for me( not like it was dramatic sef) but I just felt this chill mommy body and became scared!!! I want babies oooooooooo, I want to overcome this ish!!!