Though my husband didn't voice his disappointment somehow am sure he still feels I lied to him about being a virgin. I saw something he wrote in his diary after our wedding night. It's heart breaking buh i don't feel I need to explain myself to him. If he feels I lied because there was no blood stain and that I faked the pain that night. Issorait. I dont have strength. God knows everything. I will just sit and wait for comments. Hopefully some others have had similar experience