Why will a blessing from God leave such a bitter and painful taste in my mouth? I do not have a single peace both day and night! Am stuck as a housewife which was never my plans. I have my mom n siblings to support. Y will a child throw me into darkness and confusion? Dear Lord,u made me and u know am d last person to care for this child bcus I do not have d patience and tolerance to tend to a special needs child who will never walk according to d Drs. Am I going to live my life crippled too? Dear lord,i know it will hurt me but this kid is better up in heaven. I cant! I cant!! I just cant anymore!!!