Dear God where are you?

Dear God where are you?

I looked up at the sky one sad painful day
Through my darkness anger and pain I saw
Beautiful hues of blissful blues
Clouds Billowing like Sheets of silken dreams
Vanilla ice cream swirls of cotton candy
I could almost taste yet not touch
Unreachable untouchable
So out of reach
Where are you?
I silently screamed
You said you would always be here
Yet I do not see you
Dear God where are you?

I closed my eyes stood on my toes and reached out
I Prayed
Dear god, help me
I Whispered
Dear god, forgive me
I Cried and begged
Dear god, love me, for I will always be your child

Swaying in the breeze feeling the winds sweep through my hair
To my ears came a sweet melody making my heart dance with joy
Then from a parting in the clouds came the hand of god
I witnessed it beckoning to me reassuring and so softening
I took his hand and sat upon a cloud and he enveloped me
Soothing energising and exhilarating
Touching caressing my entire being
And in his softness and warmth
I felt wanted and loved found forgiveness
I found him for he lives in my heart and not in the clouds

I dedicate this poem to everyone who is looking for God….
Look deep within your heart for you will find him

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