The true nature of drugs as it goes into the body system it's hard. How one feels after could be blue and blur.
Sometimes we want to hide under its influence for so many reasons best known to each of us, but then it really didn't made us feel much better than worst.
Whatever influence it gives thrills, for all I know it's speed would kill, why? Being extra creative, bold, I could do with, but why take away my personality, my social accountability and my true value for existence, it hurts badly.
If I would loose my dignity to get better then it's better to be an ordinary man.
The speed it's so great that I can hardly keep up with it, age is on the increase, an I know, for man its no reptile the older it gets the faster it becomes.
Am a man and I've got dominion over all things but this thing wouldn't make me attain spirituality, it had only open windows for higher meditation, gift of analysis yet no control of how to use it.
I can't make life, yet love by many, cause I don't know my enemies from friends it's all dark at day.
So I got to take to street with a torch and this is where I am, and who I am. Live free yet like in a cage.
I could use someone's help but that's where the love turns hate. Of course I can't blame them it's all on me, and my speed I guess.
I might not be as strong or clever, neither as smart as you but if you were close you could still need my help or support either ways you know.
But this things in me it's not making me get better, I want to live long, and all I need is to be free from these drug demons so I can truly live a good life cause life is good.
For all the damages I have done against myself I'm truly sorry, I see reasons to quit.
My pains I had bared alone with no one knowing how much heavy it is on me, couple with my recent losses I see reasons to quit.
I see a rehab center and I strongly want to walk through it's door, before these drugs takes all that is left of me, enough to drain my life.
Under its influence I had not really done better or felt better, I want a bail out and if I could use your support and donations I might be able to walk through the rehab doors, I truly need it.
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