You have no idea that her mind & heart is full of torment, she flashes you a smile,
you have no idea that her heart is in denial.
You ask her how her day was and all she'll say is fine.
you have no idea that her brain and herself are arguing to keep up the fake outer appearance.
her happiness is only in moments as she walks in this world.
The thoughts in her head have her wishing she was laying in a cold dark hole sometimes.
Once you lose your soul there is no turning back.
Everything she once dreamed of no longer has an impact.
she don't want to have fun.
her days are so long the problems in her mind makes her question if she should carry on.
she smiles so that's what people see on her face,
they think that she is happy but deep down inside she feels like a worthless disgrace.
Each day the performance she puts on for other people's sake,
But she questions herself and wonders if her act is her perfect punishment for her life's choices & mistakes.
she struggle's to get a full night's sleep and she wonders to herself if tomorrow is the day her heart will be back to it's old self or will it still be skipping every other beat.
she wonders if things that once made her happy to be alive will make a comeback.
she wonders if the little things in life that made her who she is will have her once again dreaming to the stars.
she wonders if she will feel less empty.
she wonders to herself who holds the match to start that fire.
she's tired of running and losing her breath.
she wants to hold tight to something that will help her once again enjoy the journey into lives amazing treks.
she wants to feel that every day can be better than the last.
