Mein Kampf - Chapter 1


SUBMITTED BY: FlokiFlick

DATE: Aug. 18, 2022, 10:37 p.m.

FORMAT: Text only

SIZE: 36.7 kB

HITS: 439

  1. In The Home Of My Parents
  2. IT HAS turned out fortunate for me to-day that destiny appointed Braunau-on-the-Inn
  3. to be my birthplace. For that little town is situated just on the frontier between those
  4. two States the reunion of which seems, at least to us of the younger generation, a task to
  5. which we should devote our lives and in the pursuit of which every possible means
  6. should be employed.
  7. German-Austria must be restored to the great German Motherland. And not indeed on
  8. any grounds of economic calculation whatsoever. No, no. Even if the union were a
  9. matter of economic indifference, and even if it were to be disadvantageous from the
  10. economic standpoint, still it ought to take place. People of the same blood should be in
  11. the same REICH. The German people will have no right to engage in a colonial policy
  12. until they shall have brought all their children together in the one State. When the
  13. territory of the REICH embraces all the Germans and finds itself unable to assure them
  14. a livelihood, only then can the moral right arise, from the need of the people to acquire
  15. foreign territory. The plough is then the sword; and the tears of war will produce the
  16. daily bread for the generations to come.
  17. And so this little frontier town appeared to me as the symbol of a great task. But in
  18. another regard also it points to a lesson that is applicable to our day. Over a hundred
  19. years ago this sequestered spot was the scene of a tragic calamity which affected the
  20. whole German nation and will be remembered for ever, at least in the annals of German
  21. history. At the time of our Fatherland's deepest humiliation a bookseller, Johannes
  22. Palm, uncompromising nationalist and enemy of the French, was put to death here
  23. because he had the misfortune to have loved Germany well. He obstinately refused to
  24. disclose the names of his associates, or rather the principals who were chiefly
  25. responsible for the affair. Just as it happened with Leo Schlageter. The former, like the
  26. latter, was denounced to the French by a Government agent. It was a director of police
  27. from Augsburg who won an ignoble renown on that occasion and set the example
  28. which was to be copied at a later date by the neo-German officials of the REICH under
  29. Herr Severing's regime (Note 1).
  30. In this little town on the Inn, haloed by the memory of a German martyr, a town that
  31. was Bavarian by blood but under the rule of the Austrian State, my parents were
  32. domiciled towards the end of the last century. My father was a civil servant who
  33. fulfilled his duties very conscientiously. My mother looked after the household and
  34. lovingly devoted herself to the care of her children. From that period I have not retained
  35. very much in my memory; because after a few years my father had to leave that frontier
  36. town which I had come to love so much and take up a new post farther down the Inn
  37. valley, at Passau, therefore actually in Germany itself.
  38. In those days it was the usual lot of an Austrian civil servant to be transferred
  39. periodically from one post to another. Not long after coming to Passau my father was
  40. transferred to Linz, and while there he retired finally to live on his pension. But this did
  41. not mean that the old gentleman would now rest from his labours.
  42. He was the son of a poor cottager, and while still a boy he grew restless and left home.
  43. When he was barely thirteen years old he buckled on his satchel and set forth from his
  44. native woodland parish. Despite the dissuasion of villagers who could speak from
  45. 'experience,' he went to Vienna to learn a trade there. This was in the fiftieth year of the
  46. last century. It was a sore trial, that of deciding to leave home and face the unknown,
  47. with three gulden in his pocket. By when the boy of thirteen was a lad of seventeen and
  48. had passed his apprenticeship examination as a craftsman he was not content. Quite the
  49. contrary. The persistent economic depression of that period and the constant want and
  50. misery strengthened his resolution to give up working at a trade and strive for
  51. 'something higher.' As a boy it had seemed to him that the position of the parish priest
  52. in his native village was the highest in the scale of human attainment; but now that the
  53. big city had enlarged his outlook the young man looked up to the dignity of a State
  54. official as the highest of all. With the tenacity of one whom misery and trouble had
  55. already made old when only half-way through his youth the young man of seventeen
  56. obstinately set out on his new project and stuck to it until he won through. He became a
  57. civil servant. He was about twenty-three years old, I think, when he succeeded in
  58. making himself what he had resolved to become. Thus he was able to fulfil the promise
  59. he had made as a poor boy not to return to his native village until he was 'somebody.'
  60. He had gained his end. But in the village there was nobody who had remembered him
  61. as a little boy, and the village itself had become strange to him.
  62. Now at last, when he was fifty-six years old, he gave up his active career; but he could
  63. not bear to be idle for a single day. On the outskirts of the small market town of
  64. Lambach in Upper Austria he bought a farm and tilled it himself. Thus, at the end of a
  65. long and hard-working career, he came back to the life which his father had led.
  66. It was at this period that I first began to have ideals of my own. I spent a good deal of
  67. time scampering about in the open, on the long road from school, and mixing up with
  68. some of the roughest of the boys, which caused my mother many anxious moments. All
  69. this tended to make me something quite the reverse of a stay-at-home. I gave scarcely
  70. any serious thought to the question of choosing a vocation in life; but I was certainly
  71. quite out of sympathy with the kind of career which my father had followed. I think
  72. that an inborn talent for speaking now began to develop and take shape during the
  73. more or less strenuous arguments which I used to have with my comrades. I had
  74. become a juvenile ringleader who learned well and easily at school but was rather
  75. difficult to manage. In my freetime I practised singing in the choir of the monastery
  76. church at Lambach, and thus it happened that I was placed in a very favourable
  77. position to be emotionally impressed again and again by the magnificent splendour of
  78. ecclesiastical ceremonial. What could be more natural for me than to look upon the
  79. Abbot as representing the highest human ideal worth striving for, just as the position of
  80. the humble village priest had appeared to my father in his own boyhood days? At least,
  81. that was my idea for a while. But the juvenile disputes I had with my father did not lead
  82. him to appreciate his son's oratorical gifts in such a way as to see in them a favourable
  83. promise for such a career, and so he naturally could not understand the boyish ideas I
  84. had in my head at that time. This contradiction in my character made him feel
  85. somewhat anxious.
  86. As a matter of fact, that transitory yearning after such a vocation soon gave way to
  87. hopes that were better suited to my temperament. Browsing through my father's books,
  88. I chanced to come across some publications that dealt with military subjects. One of
  89. these publications was a popular history of the Franco-German War of 1870-71. It
  90. consisted of two volumes of an illustrated periodical dating from those years. These
  91. became my favourite reading. In a little while that great and heroic conflict began to
  92. take first place in my mind. And from that time onwards I became more and more
  93. enthusiastic about everything that was in any way connected with war or military
  94. affairs.
  95. But this story of the Franco-German War had a special significance for me on other
  96. grounds also. For the first time, and as yet only in quite a vague way, the question
  97. began to present itself: Is there a difference--and if there be, what is it--between the
  98. Germans who fought that war and the other Germans? Why did not Austria also take
  99. part in it? Why did not my father and all the others fight in that struggle? Are we not
  100. the same as the other Germans? Do we not all belong together?
  101. That was the first time that this problem began to agitate my small brain. And from the
  102. replies that were given to the questions which I asked very tentatively, I was forced to
  103. accept the fact, though with a secret envy, that not all Germans had the good luck to
  104. belong to Bismarck's Empire. This was something that I could not understand.
  105. It was decided that I should study. Considering my character as a whole, and especially
  106. my temperament, my father decided that the classical subjects studied at the Lyceum
  107. were not suited to my natural talents. He thought that the REALSCHULE (Note 2)
  108. would suit me better. My obvious talent for drawing confirmed him in that view; for in
  109. his opinion drawing was a subject too much neglected in the Austrian GYMNASIUM.
  110. Probably also the memory of the hard road which he himself had travelled contributed
  111. to make him look upon classical studies as unpractical and accordingly to set little value
  112. on them. At the back of his mind he had the idea that his son also should become an
  113. official of the Government. Indeed he had decided on that career for me. The difficulties
  114. through which he had to struggle in making his own career led him to overestimate
  115. what he had achieved, because this was exclusively the result of his own indefatigable
  116. industry and energy. The characteristic pride of the self-made man urged him towards
  117. the idea that his son should follow the same calling and if possible rise to a higher
  118. position in it. Moreover, this idea was strengthened by the consideration that the results
  119. of his own life's industry had placed him in a position to facilitate his son's
  120. advancement in the same career.
  121. He was simply incapable of imagining that I might reject what had meant everything in
  122. life to him. My father's decision was simple, definite, clear and, in his eyes, it was
  123. something to be taken for granted. A man of such a nature who had become an autocrat
  124. by reason of his own hard struggle for existence, could not think of allowing
  125. 'inexperienced' and irresponsible young fellows to choose their own careers. To act in
  126. such a way, where the future of his own son was concerned, would have been a grave
  127. and reprehensible weakness in the exercise of parental authority and responsibility,
  128. something utterly incompatible with his characteristic sense of duty.
  129. And yet it had to be otherwise.
  130. For the first time in my life--I was then eleven years old--I felt myself forced into open
  131. opposition. No matter how hard and determined my father might be about putting his
  132. own plans and opinions into action, his son was no less obstinate in refusing to accept
  133. ideas on which he set little or no value.
  134. I would not become a civil servant.
  135. No amount of persuasion and no amount of 'grave' warnings could break down that
  136. opposition. I would not become a State official, not on any account. All the attempts
  137. which my father made to arouse in me a love or liking for that profession, by picturing
  138. his own career for me, had only the opposite effect. It nauseated me to think that one
  139. day I might be fettered to an office stool, that I could not dispose of my own time but
  140. would be forced to spend the whole of my life filling out forms.
  141. One can imagine what kind of thoughts such a prospect awakened in the mind of a
  142. young fellow who was by no means what is called a 'good boy' in the current sense of
  143. that term. The ridiculously easy school tasks which we were given made it possible for
  144. me to spend far more time in the open air than at home. To-day, when my political
  145. opponents pry into my life with diligent scrutiny, as far back as the days of my
  146. boyhood, so as finally to be able to prove what disreputable tricks this Hitler was
  147. accustomed to in his young days, I thank heaven that I can look back to those happy
  148. days and find the memory of them helpful. The fields and the woods were then the
  149. terrain on which all disputes were fought out.
  150. Even attendance at the REALSCHULE could not alter my way of spending my time. But
  151. I had now another battle to fight.
  152. So long as the paternal plan to make a State functionary contradicted my own
  153. inclinations only in the abstract, the conflict was easy to bear. I could be discreet about
  154. expressing my personal views and thus avoid constantly recurrent disputes. My own
  155. resolution not to become a Government official was sufficient for the time being to put
  156. my mind completely at rest. I held on to that resolution inexorably. But the situation
  157. became more difficult once I had a positive plan of my own which I might present to
  158. my father as a counter-suggestion. This happened when I was twelve years old. How it
  159. came about I cannot exactly say now; but one day it became clear to me that I would be
  160. a painter--I mean an artist. That I had an aptitude for drawing was an admitted fact. It
  161. was even one of the reasons why my father had sent me to the REALSCHULE; but he
  162. had never thought of having that talent developed in such a way that I could take up
  163. painting as a professional career. Quite the contrary. When, as a result of my renewed
  164. refusal to adopt his favourite plan, my father asked me for the first time what I myself
  165. really wished to be, the resolution that I had already formed expressed itself almost
  166. automatically. For a while my father was speechless. "A painter? An artist-painter?" he
  167. exclaimed.
  168. He wondered whether I was in a sound state of mind. He thought that he might not
  169. have caught my words rightly, or that he had misunderstood what I meant. But when I
  170. had explained my ideas to him and he saw how seriously I took them, he opposed them
  171. with that full determination which was characteristic of him. His decision was
  172. exceedingly simple and could not be deflected from its course by any consideration of
  173. what my own natural qualifications really were.
  174. "Artist! Not as long as I live, never." As the son had inherited some of the father's
  175. obstinacy, besides having other qualities of his own, my reply was equally energetic.
  176. But it stated something quite the contrary.
  177. At that our struggle became stalemate. The father would not abandon his 'Never', and I
  178. became all the more consolidated in my 'Nevertheless'.
  179. Naturally the resulting situation was not pleasant. The old gentleman was bitterly
  180. annoyed; and indeed so was I, although I really loved him. My father forbade me to
  181. entertain any hopes of taking up the art of painting as a profession. I went a step further
  182. and declared that I would not study anything else. With such declarations the situation
  183. became still more strained, so that the old gentleman irrevocably decided to assert his
  184. parental authority at all costs. That led me to adopt an attitude of circumspect silence,
  185. but I put my threat into execution. I thought that, once it became clear to my father that
  186. I was making no progress at the REALSCHULE, for weal or for woe, he would be
  187. forced to allow me to follow the happy career I had dreamed of.
  188. I do not know whether I calculated rightly or not. Certainly my failure to make progress
  189. became quite visible in the school. I studied just the subjects that appealed to me,
  190. especially those which I thought might be of advantage to me later on as a painter.
  191. What did not appear to have any importance from this point of view, or what did not
  192. otherwise appeal to me favourably, I completely sabotaged. My school reports of that
  193. time were always in the extremes of good or bad, according to the subject and the
  194. interest it had for me. In one column my qualification read 'very good' or 'excellent'. In
  195. another it read 'average' or even 'below average'. By far my best subjects were
  196. geography and, even more so, general history. These were my two favourite subjects,
  197. and I led the class in them.
  198. When I look back over so many years and try to judge the results of that experience I
  199. find two very significant facts standing out clearly before my mind.
  200. First, I became a nationalist.
  201. Second, I learned to understand and grasp the true meaning of history.
  202. The old Austria was a multi-national State. In those days at least the citizens of the
  203. German Empire, taken through and through, could not understand what that fact
  204. meant in the everyday life of the individuals within such a State. After the magnificent
  205. triumphant march of the victorious armies in the Franco-German War the Germans in
  206. the REICH became steadily more and more estranged from the Germans beyond their
  207. frontiers, partly because they did not deign to appreciate those other Germans at their
  208. true value or simply because they were incapable of doing so.
  209. The Germans of the REICH did not realize that if the Germans in Austria had not been
  210. of the best racial stock they could never have given the stamp of their own character to
  211. an Empire of 52 millions, so definitely that in Germany itself the idea arose--though
  212. quite an erroneous one--that Austria was a German State. That was an error which led
  213. to dire consequences; but all the same it was a magnificent testimony to the character of
  214. the ten million Germans in that East Mark. (Note 3) Only very few of the Germans in
  215. the REICH itself had an idea of the bitter struggle which those Eastern Germans had to
  216. carry on daily for the preservation of their German language, their German schools and
  217. their German character. Only to-day, when a tragic fate has torn several millions of our
  218. kinsfolk away from the REICH and has forced them to live under the rule of the
  219. stranger, dreaming of that common fatherland towards which all their yearnings are
  220. directed and struggling to uphold at least the sacred right of using their mother tongue-
  221. -only now have the wider circles of the German population come to realize what it
  222. means to have to fight for the traditions of one's race. And so at last perhaps there are
  223. people here and there who can assess the greatness of that German spirit which
  224. animated the old East Mark and enabled those people, left entirely dependent on their
  225. own resources, to defend the Empire against the Orient for several centuries and
  226. subsequently to hold fast the frontiers of the German language through a guerilla
  227. warfare of attrition, at a time when the German Empire was sedulously cultivating an
  228. interest for colonies but not for its own flesh and blood before the threshold of its own
  229. door.
  230. What has happened always and everywhere, in every kind of struggle, happened also
  231. in the language fight which was carried on in the old Austria. There were three groups--
  232. the fighters, the hedgers and the traitors. Even in the schools this sifting already began
  233. to take place. And it is worth noting that the struggle for the language was waged
  234. perhaps in its bitterest form around the school; because this was the nursery where the
  235. seeds had to be watered which were to spring up and form the future generation. The
  236. tactical objective of the fight was the winning over of the child, and it was to the child
  237. that the first rallying cry was addressed:
  238. "German youth, do not forget that you are a German," and "Remember, little girl, that
  239. one day you must be a German mother."
  240. Those who know something of the juvenile spirit can understand how youth will
  241. always lend a glad ear to such a rallying cry. Under many forms the young people led
  242. the struggle, fighting in their own way and with their own weapons. They refused to
  243. sing non-German songs. The greater the efforts made to win them away from their
  244. German allegiance, the more they exalted the glory of their German heroes. They
  245. stinted themselves in buying things to eat, so that they might spare their pennies to help
  246. the war chest of their elders. They were incredibly alert in the significance of what the
  247. non-German teachers said and they contradicted in unison. They wore the forbidden
  248. emblems of their own kinsfolk and were happy when penalised for doing so, or even
  249. physically punished. In miniature they were mirrors of loyalty from which the older
  250. people might learn a lesson.
  251. And thus it was that at a comparatively early age I took part in the struggle which the
  252. nationalities were waging against one another in the old Austria. When meetings were
  253. held for the South Mark German League and the School League we wore cornflowers
  254. and black-red-gold colours to express our loyalty. We greeted one another with HEIL!
  255. and instead of the Austrian anthem we sang our own DEUTSCHLAND ÜBER ALLES,
  256. despite warnings and penalties. Thus the youth were educated politically at a time
  257. when the citizens of a so-called national State for the most part knew little of their own
  258. nationality except the language. Of course, I did not belong to the hedgers. Within a
  259. little while I had become an ardent 'German National', which has a different meaning
  260. from the party significance attached to that phrase to-day.
  261. I developed very rapidly in the nationalist direction, and by the time I was 15 years old
  262. I had come to understand the distinction between dynastic patriotism and nationalism
  263. based on the concept of folk, or people, my inclination being entirely in favour of the
  264. latter.
  265. Such a preference may not perhaps be clearly intelligible to those who have never taken
  266. the trouble to study the internal conditions that prevailed under the Habsburg
  267. Monarchy.
  268. Among historical studies universal history was the subject almost exclusively taught in
  269. the Austrian schools, for of specific Austrian history there was only very little. The fate
  270. of this State was closely bound up with the existence and development of Germany as a
  271. whole; so a division of history into German history and Austrian history would be
  272. practically inconceivable. And indeed it was only when the German people came to be
  273. divided between two States that this division of German history began to take place.
  274. The insignia (Note 4) of a former imperial sovereignty which were still preserved in
  275. Vienna appeared to act as magical relics rather than as the visible guarantee of an
  276. everlasting bond of union.
  277. When the Habsburg State crumbled to pieces in 1918 the Austrian Germans
  278. instinctively raised an outcry for union with their German fatherland. That was the
  279. voice of a unanimous yearning in the hearts of the whole people for a return to the
  280. unforgotten home of their fathers. But such a general yearning could not be explained
  281. except by attributing the cause of it to the historical training through which the
  282. individual Austrian Germans had passed. Therein lay a spring that never dried up.
  283. Especially in times of distraction and forgetfulness its quiet voice was a reminder of the
  284. past, bidding the people to look out beyond the mere welfare of the moment to a new
  285. future.
  286. The teaching of universal history in what are called the middle schools is still very
  287. unsatisfactory. Few teachers realize that the purpose of teaching history is not the
  288. memorizing of some dates and facts, that the student is not interested in knowing the
  289. exact date of a battle or the birthday of some marshal or other, and not at all--or at least
  290. only very insignificantly--interested in knowing when the crown of his fathers was
  291. placed on the brow of some monarch. These are certainly not looked upon as important
  292. matters.
  293. To study history means to search for and discover the forces that are the causes of those
  294. results which appear before our eyes as historical events. The art of reading and
  295. studying consists in remembering the essentials and forgetting what is not essential.
  296. Probably my whole future life was determined by the fact that I had a professor of
  297. history who understood, as few others understand, how to make this viewpoint prevail
  298. in teaching and in examining. This teacher was Dr. Leopold Poetsch, of the
  299. REALSCHULE at Linz. He was the ideal personification of the qualities necessary to a
  300. teacher of history in the sense I have mentioned above. An elderly gentleman with a
  301. decisive manner but a kindly heart, he was a very attractive speaker and was able to
  302. inspire us with his own enthusiasm. Even to-day I cannot recall without emotion that
  303. venerable personality whose enthusiastic exposition of history so often made us entirely
  304. forget the present and allow ourselves to be transported as if by magic into the past. He
  305. penetrated through the dim mist of thousands of years and transformed the historical
  306. memory of the dead past into a living reality. When we listened to him we became afire
  307. with enthusiasm and we were sometimes moved even to tears.
  308. It was still more fortunate that this professor was able not only to illustrate the past by
  309. examples from the present but from the past he was also able to draw a lesson for the
  310. present. He understood better than any other the everyday problems that were then
  311. agitating our minds. The national fervour which we felt in our own small way was
  312. utilized by him as an instrument of our education, inasmuch as he often appealed to our
  313. national sense of honour; for in that way he maintained order and held our attention
  314. much more easily than he could have done by any other means. It was because I had
  315. such a professor that history became my favourite subject. As a natural consequence,
  316. but without the conscious connivance of my professor, I then and there became a young
  317. rebel. But who could have studied German history under such a teacher and not
  318. become an enemy of that State whose rulers exercised such a disastrous influence on the
  319. destinies of the German nation? Finally, how could one remain the faithful subject of
  320. the House of Habsburg, whose past history and present conduct proved it to be ready
  321. ever and always to betray the interests of the German people for the sake of paltry
  322. personal interests? Did not we as youngsters fully realize that the House of Habsburg
  323. did not, and could not, have any love for us Germans?
  324. What history taught us about the policy followed by the House of Habsburg was
  325. corroborated by our own everyday experiences. In the north and in the south the poison
  326. of foreign races was eating into the body of our people, and even Vienna was steadily
  327. becoming more and more a non-German city. The 'Imperial House' favoured the Czechs
  328. on every possible occasion. Indeed it was the hand of the goddess of eternal justice and
  329. inexorable retribution that caused the most deadly enemy of Germanism in Austria, the
  330. Archduke Franz Ferdinand, to fall by the very bullets which he himself had helped to
  331. cast. Working from above downwards, he was the chief patron of the movement to
  332. make Austria a Slav State.
  333. The burdens laid on the shoulders of the German people were enormous and the
  334. sacrifices of money and blood which they had to make were incredibly heavy.
  335. Yet anybody who was not quite blind must have seen that it was all in vain. What
  336. affected us most bitterly was the consciousness of the fact that this whole system was
  337. morally shielded by the alliance with Germany, whereby the slow extirpation of
  338. Germanism in the old Austrian Monarchy seemed in some way to be more or less
  339. sanctioned by Germany herself. Habsburg hypocrisy, which endeavoured outwardly to
  340. make the people believe that Austria still remained a German State, increased the
  341. feeling of hatred against the Imperial House and at the same time aroused a spirit of
  342. rebellion and contempt.
  343. But in the German Empire itself those who were then its rulers saw nothing of what all
  344. this meant. As if struck blind, they stood beside a corpse and in the very symptoms of
  345. decomposition they believed that they recognized the signs of a renewed vitality. In
  346. that unhappy alliance between the young German Empire and the illusory Austrian
  347. State lay the germ of the World War and also of the final collapse.
  348. In the subsequent pages of this book I shall go to the root of the problem. Suffice it to
  349. say here that in the very early years of my youth I came to certain conclusions which I
  350. have never abandoned. Indeed I became more profoundly convinced of them as the
  351. years passed. They were: That the dissolution of the Austrian Empire is a preliminary
  352. condition for the defence of Germany; further, that national feeling is by no means
  353. identical with dynastic patriotism; finally, and above all, that the House of Habsburg
  354. was destined to bring misfortune to the German nation.
  355. As a logical consequence of these convictions, there arose in me a feeling of intense love
  356. for my German-Austrian home and a profound hatred for the Austrian State.
  357. That kind of historical thinking which was developed in me through my study of
  358. history at school never left me afterwards. World history became more and more an
  359. inexhaustible source for the understanding of contemporary historical events, which
  360. means politics. Therefore I will not "learn" politics but let politics teach me.
  361. A precocious revolutionary in politics I was no less a precocious revolutionary in art. At
  362. that time the provincial capital of Upper Austria had a theatre which, relatively
  363. speaking, was not bad. Almost everything was played there. When I was twelve years
  364. old I saw William Tell performed. That was my first experience of the theatre. Some
  365. months later I attended a performance of LOHENGRIN, the first opera I had ever
  366. heard. I was fascinated at once. My youthful enthusiasm for the Bayreuth Master knew
  367. no limits. Again and again I was drawn to hear his operas; and to-day I consider it a
  368. great piece of luck that these modest productions in the little provincial city prepared
  369. the way and made it possible for me to appreciate the better productions later on.
  370. But all this helped to intensify my profound aversion for the career that my father had
  371. chosen for me; and this dislike became especially strong as the rough corners of
  372. youthful boorishness became worn off, a process which in my case caused a good deal
  373. of pain. I became more and more convinced that I should never be happy as a State
  374. official. And now that the REALSCHULE had recognized and acknowledged my
  375. aptitude for drawing, my own resolution became all the stronger. Imprecations and
  376. threats had no longer any chance of changing it. I wanted to become a painter and no
  377. power in the world could force me to become a civil servant. The only peculiar feature
  378. of the situation now was that as I grew bigger I became more and more interested in
  379. architecture. I considered this fact as a natural development of my flair for painting and
  380. I rejoiced inwardly that the sphere of my artistic interests was thus enlarged. I had no
  381. notion that one day it would have to be otherwise.
  382. The question of my career was decided much sooner than I could have expected.
  383. When I was in my thirteenth year my father was suddenly taken from us. He was still
  384. in robust health when a stroke of apoplexy painlessly ended his earthly wanderings and
  385. left us all deeply bereaved. His most ardent longing was to be able to help his son to
  386. advance in a career and thus save me from the harsh ordeal that he himself had to go
  387. through. But it appeared to him then as if that longing were all in vain. And yet, though
  388. he himself was not conscious of it, he had sown the seeds of a future which neither of us
  389. foresaw at that time.
  390. At first nothing changed outwardly.
  391. My mother felt it her duty to continue my education in accordance with my father's
  392. wishes, which meant that she would have me study for the civil service. For my own
  393. part I was even more firmly determined than ever before that under no circumstances
  394. would I become an official of the State. The curriculum and teaching methods followed
  395. in the middle school were so far removed from my ideals that I became profoundly
  396. indifferent. Illness suddenly came to my assistance. Within a few weeks it decided my
  397. future and put an end to the long-standing family conflict. My lungs became so
  398. seriously affected that the doctor advised my mother very strongly not under any
  399. circumstances to allow me to take up a career which would necessitate working in an
  400. office. He ordered that I should give up attendance at the REALSCHULE for a year at
  401. least. What I had secretly desired for such a long time, and had persistently fought for,
  402. now became a reality almost at one stroke.
  403. Influenced by my illness, my mother agreed that I should leave the REALSCHULE and
  404. attend the Academy.
  405. Those were happy days, which appeared to me almost as a dream; but they were bound
  406. to remain only a dream. Two years later my mother's death put a brutal end to all my
  407. fine projects. She succumbed to a long and painful illness which from the very
  408. beginning permitted little hope of recovery. Though expected, her death came as a
  409. terrible blow to me. I respected my father, but I loved my mother.
  410. Poverty and stern reality forced me to decide promptly.
  411. The meagre resources of the family had been almost entirely used up through my
  412. mother's severe illness. The allowance which came to me as an orphan was not enough
  413. for the bare necessities of life. Somehow or other I would have to earn my own bread.
  414. With my clothes and linen packed in a valise and with an indomitable resolution in my
  415. heart, I left for Vienna. I hoped to forestall fate, as my father had done fifty years before.
  416. I was determined to become 'something'--but certainly not a civil servant.
  417. [Note 1. In order to understand the reference here, and similar references in later
  418. portions of MEIN KAMPF, the following must be borne in mind:
  419. From 1792 to 1814 the French Revolutionary Armies overran Germany. In 1800 Bavaria
  420. shared in the Austrian defeat at Hohenlinden and the French occupied Munich. In 1805
  421. the Bavarian Elector was made King of Bavaria by Napoleon and stipulated to back up
  422. Napoleon in all his wars with a force of 30,000 men. Thus Bavaria became the absolute
  423. vassal of the French. This was 'TheTime of Germany's Deepest Humiliation', Which is
  424. referred to again and again by Hitler.
  425. In 1806 a pamphlet entitled 'Germany's Deepest Humiliation' was published in South
  426. Germany. Amnng those who helped to circulate the pamphlet was the Nürnberg
  427. bookseller, Johannes Philipp Palm. He was denounced to the French by a Bavarian
  428. police agent. At his trial he refused to disclose thename of the author. By Napoleon's
  429. orders, he was shot at Braunau-on-the-Innon August 26th, 1806. A monument erected
  430. to him on the site of the executionwas one of the first public objects that made an
  431. impression on Hitler asa little boy.
  432. Leo Schlageter's case was in many respects parallel to that of Johannes Palm. Schlageter
  433. was a German theological student who volunteered for service in 1914. He became an
  434. artillery officer and won the Iron Cross of both classes. When the French occupied the
  435. Ruhr in 1923 Schlageter helped to organize the passive resistance on the German side.
  436. He and his companions blew up a railway bridge for the purpose of making the
  437. transport of coal to France more difficult.
  438. Those who took part in the affair were denounced to the French by a German informer.
  439. Schlageter took the whole responsibility on his own shoulders and was condemned to
  440. death, his companions being sentenced to various terms of imprisonment and penal
  441. servitude by the French Court. Schlageter refused to disclose the identity of those who
  442. issued the order to blow up the railway bridge and he would not plead for mercy before
  443. a French Court. He was shot by a French firing-squad on May 26th, 1923. Severing was
  444. at that time German Minister of the Interior. It is said that representations were made,
  445. to himon Schlageter's behalf and that he refused to interfere.
  446. Schlageter has become the chief martyr of the German resistancc to the French
  447. occupation of the Ruhr and also one of the great heroes of the National Socialist
  448. Movement. He had joined the Movement at a very early stage, his card of membership
  449. bearing the number 61.]
  450. [Note 2. Non-classical secondary school. The Lyceum and GYMNASIUM were classical
  451. or semi-classical secondary schools.]
  452. [Note 3. See Translator's Introduction.]
  453. [Note 4. When Francis II had laid down his title as Emperor of the Holy Roman
  454. Empireof the German Nation, which he did at the command of Napoleon, the
  455. Crownand Mace, as the Imperial Insignia, were kept in Vienna. After the German
  456. Empire was refounded, in 1871, under William I, there were many demands tohave the
  457. Insignia transferred to Berlin. But these went unheeded. Hitler had them brought to
  458. Germany after the Austrian Anschluss and displayed at Nuremberg during the Party
  459. Congress in September 1938.]
  460. Chapter 2
  461. Years Of Study And Suffering In Vienna
  462. WHEN MY mother died my fate had already

comments powered by Disqus