I have practically lost hope, just last night I was talking to myself giving myself reasons why I need to end it all. Since I turned 20 going to 21 now I am 28,I have been sick, they call it spiritual sickness, what have I not done, where haven't they taken me to.. This is me that loved God, the things of God used to bring joy to my heart, a seedlike object in my stomach, later went to my head, from 2:1 to 3rd class. I struggled to make 2:2, Got a job, I have spent alot, yet no headway, even got married to see if I give birth it would go, I can't even get pregnant. I save money to look for the next healing house to visit. God has forsaken me. But with what I read up there, I am hopeful again, this is the devil trying to stop me from serving God. I won't give up just yet.
