Is Duniya main kayi tarha ke log rehte hai, har aadmi ka ek sapna hota hai, jise who hamesha pura hote hue dekhna chahta hai. Kisi ke pure hote bhi hai aur kisi ke nahi bhi hote. Yeh ek bhagvaan ka diya hua var hai, jiske jeise karam weisa naseeb….. Yeh duniya pehle ek cheez pe chalti thi,aur who hai vishvass, lekin ab vishvass ka koi mulya nahi raha, bas peisa hai to duniya hai, yeh ek niyam bann chuka hai is yug ka. Koi pani ka pyasa to koi peise ka pyasa ya phir koi kisi ke khoon ka pyasa, har aadmi kisi na kisi cheez ki kami mehsus karta hai aur use who har pal paa na chahta hai. Is duniya ke logon ki bahot si kahaniya hoti hai, jeise har insan ki ek kahaani, weise hi meri bhi ek kahaani hai, main bhi isi duniya main basne waale logon ka ek hissa hoon, haan…. Mera bhi ek sapna tha, main bhi who hi chahta tha jo is duniya main basne waala har insaan chahta hai…. Main khud nahi tay kar paa raha tha main kis ki kami main mehsus kar raha hoon…. Ek yeh hi aisi cheez hai jo insaan ki zindagi main modd laata hai, pyar ka ehsaas ho ya kisi aur tarha ka ehsaas ho,who apni is zindagi main ek baar to paata hi hai, jise who bhoola kar bhi kabhi nahi bhool paata hai…. Aisa hi ehsaas maine bhi meshus kiya tha par shayad meri takdeer ya chahe kaho use mera naseeb mere saath nahi tha…. Main nahi jaanta tha ki uski zindagi main kitni khushi hai! Maine apne pocket main uski ek tasveer aaj bhi saja ke rakhi hai. Mera dil bahot hi tez raftaar se dhadak ne laga tha. Mujhe nahi pata tha ki mujhe itne saalo ke baad dekh kar usko khushi hui bhi ya nahi! Kyun ki uske chehre par mujhe koi bhi chinha nahi dikhayi diye bas who mujhe dekhti hi rahi. Itne saalo ke baad mile hai kuch baatein nahi karogi? Par waqt kahaan kisi ke liye rukta hai jo humare liye bhi rukegi! Aaj bhi yeh dil uske liye dhadakta tha. Aap abhi bhi issi seher main rehte hai ya…! Kheir chodo unn puraani baaton ko tum batao apne baare main! Maine suna tha ki tumhe kisi compeny main badi post par jagha mili thi aur tumhari post dusre seher main lag gayi thi! Tumhaari to shaadi ho chuki hogi na! Keise hai tumhare parivaar waale? Bas yehi sawaal mere dil main aaj ke baad aksar aata raha. Main thodi der tak rota raha meri bhi bus aa gayi main ghar pahucha. Aaj mujhe aisa laga ki aaj bhi who mujhe pyar karti hai, naa jaane kyun aisa lagta tha jeise who wapas meri zindagi main aana chahti hai. Mere ghar main koi kami nahi thi kisi bhi cheez ki. College ka pehla dinn, main jab pehle din college gaya sab ke saath acchi dosti ho rahi thi, dheere dheere mere sab ache dost bann rahe the, maine usko college ke garden main dekha ped ke niche akeli beithi thi, main usko dekhta hi raha, jeise pari niche zameen par utar aayi ho, keise bhi kar ke main usse dosti karna chahta tha, uss waqt main yeh hi chahta tha ki main usse bas dekhta hi rahoon. Main itna bura nahi hoon! Dusre din humari dosti hui, hum ek dusre ko acchi trha to pata nahi par samajhne ki koshish karne lage, ek saal guzar gaya akhir jo nahi hona chahiye tha who hi ho gaya. Shayad who pal meri zindagi ke bahot anmol pal main se ek tha, jisko main kabhi nahi bhoola sakunga, ek aisa ehsaas ho raha tha jise main aksar paana chahta tha, main usse sacche dil se chahta tha. Par waqt na jaane kahaan se kahaan le ke jaata hai insaan ko. Har insaan ko is duniya main khushi milti hai to uske baad ghum ka ehsaas bhi karna hota hai, aise hi kai modd aate hai hamaari is zindagi main, waqt kabhi ek jeisa nahi rehta usko bhi karvat badalni hoti hai, aise hi mere iss waqt ne bhi karvat badli, aur uske baad mujhe kabhi chain ki neend naseeb nahi hui, aaj bhi raat ko kavita ki aawaz mere kaano main gunjhti hai aur main neend se jaag jaata hoon….. Hamaara last year chal raha tha bas thode hi dinn reh gaye the sab ke is college main, sab ke chehre kuch ukhde ukhde se lag rahe the, main aaj college der se pahocha. Sab ek dusre ko milne ke liye betaab the, kyun ki aakhir main sabko alag jo hona tha, phir pata nahi zindagi ke kiss daur main kaun kahaan mill jaaye! Main bhi apne saare dost se mila par meri nazar kisi chehre ko dhoondh rahi thi, kavita aaj nahi dikh rahi thi, maine sab se poocha, kisi ne kaha nahi aayi, kisi ne kahaa claas room main hai, kisine kaha chali gayi…. Hum kahaan door jaa rahe hai! Ek hi seher main hai na to kabhi bhi mil payenge! Tum dekho aise ro gi to main bhi apne aansu nahi rok paunga haan. Ok thik hai dekho main hanss rahi hoon he he he…!!! Mera zindagi bar saath donge na? Main hamesha tumhari bankar rehna chahti hoon. Main apni zindagi ko hamesha apne paas rakhunga main bhi nahi chahta ki main tumse dur rahoon, main tumhare ghar baarat lekar zaroor aaunga aur tumhe apne saath le jaaunga. Who pal, who din, who baatein, who aansu, who khushi, who pyar main apni is zindagi main kabhi nahi bhool sakta. Shayad yeh wohi ehsaas tha jise main paana chahta tha aur kabhi nahi bhool sakta tha… aur hum apne ghar chale gaye. Weise to hum roz milte the aur shaam ko bichadte the, par uss dinn bichadte hue aisa laga ki jeise mere shareer se koi hissa mujhse alag ho raha hai, main usse juda nahi hona chahta tha, dil hai na bass nahi maan raha tha, par kya kare! Uss waqt bhi haalat majboor the, humein bichadna tha, par haan kal phir milna tha, vaada jo kiya tha! Insaan yeh sochta hai ki kaash uska who har sapna sach ho jaaye jo usne dekhe hai, bas sirf intezaar hota hai uss waqt ka, par waqt bhi ek aisi cheez hai jo kabhi aata hai to rukta nahi aur kabhi aata hi nahi…. Mere saath bhi kuch aisa hi hone waala tha, bas intezaar karna tha… hum dusre dinn waapas mile bas ab ek hi dinn reh gaya tha college ka. Jeise waqt guzarta gaya sab ki aakhein bheegne lagi thi. Uss waqt bhi hum pura dinn saath rahe aur kuch aise pal humne guzaare jise bhoola kar bhi nahi bhool Sakte the. Chalo bolo ab kyun laaye ho! Who bahot khush hui usse who bahot khush hui, hum dono gale lage aur ek baar phir se ek dusre se apne pyaar ka izhaar kiya. Use khush dekh kar mera dil bhi bahot khush hota tha aisa lagta tha jeise mujhe is duniya ki har khushi mil gayi hai. Lekin har khushi ke baad ghum bhi aata hai. Yeh main pehle nahi jaanta tha, par ab jaan chuka hoon…. Aakhir main who waqt bhi apni raftaar se guzar raha tha, ab waqt tha bichadne ka. Pata nahi ab kisse kab mulaakat ho! Koi noukari par lag jaye ga to, koi buisness karega, ab kahaan kisi ke paas waqt rahega aise beith kar dosto se baatein karne ke liye. Shaam hote hi dheere dheere kavita ke chehre par ek maayusi si chane lagi thi, aur shayad mere bhi. Kyunki pata nahi ab kab kavita ghar se bahaar nikal sake aur mujhse mill sake, jab tak mujhe koi acchi naukari nahi mill jati, main uske ghar uska haath maangne keise jaa sakta tha, lekin shayad mujhe pata tha ki uske ghar main uske mummy papa yeh rishta manjur nahi karte, kyunki mera pariwaar uss mukaam pe nahi tha jiss mukaam par kavita ka pariwaar tha, main ek sadharan pariwaar se tha, mere papa mil main naukari karte the, aur kavita ke papa ek safal buisness man the, jisse humara koi rishta kaayam nahi ho sakta tha, uski bhi ek wajha thi, yehi ki yeh duniya main ab sab cheez peiso se tola jaata hai, chahe who baazar main bikne waali koi cheez ho ya phir do dilo ke pyar se bhare ehsaas ka rishta ho! Kisi ko koi fark nahi dikhai deta in dono cheez main. Phir bhi main is duniya se ladne ke liye khada tha mere pyar ke kiye, chahe kuch bhi ho jaaye, main apna pyar nibha kar rahoonga. Yeh hi soch thi meri, maine kabhi kisi ke baare main galat nahi socha tha, shayad is liye ki mujhe galat sochana aata hi nahi tha…. Mujhe pata hai tum aisa kyun bol rahe ho isiliye na kyunki mere ghar waalw tumhe accept nahi karenge! Who apne ghar chali gayi, main usko uss waqt bhi aise hi jaate hue dekhta raha jeise aaj maine usko 10 saal ke baad dekha tha, uske jaane ke baad naa jaane ek darr sa mere dil me hamesha rehta hai, jise main aaj bhi mehsoos karta hoon… Page 6.................................... Takdeer bhi keise keise karvat badalti hai. Jahaan bhi naukari ke liye gaya bas rishvat ki hi maang hoti thi, ab is bhrastaachaar ke zamane main koi bhi kaam rishvat ke bina nahi hota hai. Kai thokare kha kha kar main naukari ki talaash main dar badar ghumta raha, par kisi ko is deegre se kuch lena dena nahi tha, unko matlab tha to bass in kaagaz ke tukdose. Kavita ke phone aksar aate rehte the hum kai der tak baatein karte rehte. Ab bhi who mandir jaane ke bahaane mujhse roz milti thi, haan par itna waqt nahi milta tha jitna humein pehle college ke dino me milta tha. Abhi to tumhare paas bahot waqt hai is khoobsurat zindagi ko jeene ke liye, aaj nahi to kal tumhe naukari mil hi jaayegi, bas tum haar mat maan na, aur yeh kyun bhool jaate ho ki tum mere bete ho jo kabhi haarna nahi sikha! Waqt guzarta gaya aur mera aur kavita ka faasla bhi badhta gaya, ab hum milte nahi the kyun ki kavita kehti thi usko bahot kaam milta hai office main,is wajah se who mil nahi paati. Par haan hum phone par roz baatein karte the. Aise hi main roz naukari ki talaash main aur kavita apne kaam main kahin ghum ho jaate the. Aisa lagta tha jeise main koi jung lad raha hoon apni naukari ke liye, par haan zindagi bhi to ek jung hi hai na, koun kab kahaan dusman ban jaaye aur kaun kab kahaan dost banjaaye, kab koun haar jaaye aur kab jeet jaaye, yeh kisiko nahi pata. Aise hi naukari dhundhte dhundhte mujhe aakhir main naukari mil gayi, aur who bhi ek bahot badi company main badi jagha par. Aakhir me bhagvaan ne meri baat sun hi li. Keise keise karvat badalti hai takdeer who maine naukari milne se kuch pal pehle mehsus kiya, naukari bhi mili to kiss tarha! Uski bhi shuruaat ek haadse se hui, hasi aa jati hai mujhje kya kismat hai meri….
