trying to get in touch with my spirituality. i am turned off by Christianity and the holy trinity. so i am currently reading the Tanakh which is the hebrew bible or basically the old testament i dont know the difference. i have read it before as well as the Qur'an and bhagavad gita, but i have lost my spirituality in every sense and im struggling to get it back. i always loved to read religious text but since my attention span is basically nill at the moment i have decided to read atleast one Psalm a day and after i will move onto the Proverbs.
i have a hard time believing in a god and when i hear words like "the Lord" i tend to just shut down and not want to go any further. but i see religious people and i want what they have which i lack, faith. theres a great big hole in my heart and i am having trouble filling that void. i want to believe but i dont know if i can. i feel so doomed when it comes to faith
