Then I use to live my life trying to make people think good of me, was living through their thoughts. That was the beginning of my failure, I never knew that no matter how hard you try to be good, you will still end up having so many enemy than friends. But the worst of it all is that your enemy will be your close friends. Most of them that called you "friend" might not even know that they are your enemy until things start falling apart for you.
Back then I see myself as "a walking dead" , thought I have failed. When the business failed, out of frustration, I sold the fuel pumps half price of the amount I bought them, ran out of Taiwan to Hong Kong to see if I could use the remaining amount I realized from the pump sales to kick start my life there. Within two weeks of staying in Hong Kong, I failed again but this time found myself in Sha Tsui Detention Centre in Hong Kong due to some bad decisions I took within this short period I was in Hong Kong. The crime was supposed to be more than five years Jail time but God brought me out within weeks. Well the story continues .....
But all that I am trying to make out of this was that "failures are of different events", don't let it defined who you are or what you want to become because I didn't let it. Though after the Hong Kong incident, I still failed a dozen times over before I was able to understand and come to terms with what I am doing so wrong that's making me to fail, I found out that I am scared of starting from the scratch, scared of starting all over.
If you really want to succeed, you need to understand when you just had to start all over because if you don't, you will still fail. If you can't conquer yourself, you might never conquer the world.
