They accept the reality of what they look like and the body they must wake up with each day, whether they like it or not... You put on makeup, brush your hair, put an outfit together every morning and yet no one will ever notice. You could spend hours putting yourself together but it will always go unacknowledged. The girl next to in class has gotten three compliments in the first 20 minutes of the lecture wearing sweatpants and a hoodie. You have at least ten things about your appearance you want to trade or get a refund for. If only you could cast the ugly out. It's as if everyone can see your acne, scars, cellulite, and split ends from any distance. You feel the genetics lottery failed you, especially when you see a perfect family strolling by. If only my curse of ugliness could be exorcised! This is not a valid email, please try again. Every cute couple you hear about on Facebook is a punch in the face. People fawn over how perfect they are together when you can't even get one person to take an interest in you. You'll never be that person getting Promposals, roses, or secret love letters. You might even die alone. It's not easy when you feel like you're a fraud. How can you even agree with someone's comment when you yourself feel ugly. Sometimes finding fault with others just adds to your own misery, as if they are secretly referring to you. Whether it's your grandma or your own friend when you're about to go out, you become suspicious of their intent. You look at certain girls and wonder what your life would be like if you looked like them. From the girl two rows back in class or the celebrities posting their pictures on Instagram, there is always someone we wish we could look like. You wonder if you would be happier, sadder, or more confident. But anything seems better than how you feel about yourself right now. Every time you feel somewhat attractive, you just have to look around the college campus or even Facebook to realize that you are far from it. Some days you actually feel slightly attractive, but as soon as you step outside the feeling fades. No one notices you whether you're slightly attractive or not, so feel you might as well embrace it. As horrible as it is, you try to find someone worse off than you. Some days, you find no one. For a whole minute you might even appreciate what you look like. Then again, the feeling is ephemeral. It takes a million photos to find just one that you could let others see. Taking a photo is a tedious task when you feel ugly. After a thousand photos clogging up your phone, you either give up or take the one you think looks the least atrocious. You wonder if in another culture or country you would be a goddess according to their standards of beauty. There has to be somewhere in the world where you are gorgeous! Maybe you would have to join a tribe or some crazy cult, but there is a place on this earth where your grade of ugliness is actually sought after! DAMNNIT, NO SEARCH RESULTS FOR ME! But on the days you give up looking presentable makeup, styled hair, etc. When you finally relinquish your need to plaster on makeup or perfectly curl your hair everyone seems to suddenly notice. Animals are the only earthlings who do not judge how you look. They love you exactly as you are and even worship you. With them, you're not afraid to be ugly! Everyone in a group photo seems to outshine you. You scroll through the photos and realize you are definitely the ugliest one! How can everyone be so pretty? In the end, you accept the fact that you feel ugly. No one knows that you harbor these emotions, but they are there. You embrace your ugliness and hope that some day you will be someone's girl crush, idol, or goals. Even if you're not, you are proud to be ugly and rock it wherever you are!!! Emotional: a word used often nowadays to insult someone for their sensitivity towards a multitude of things. If you cry happy tears,. If you express even if it's in a healthy way that something is bothering you, you're sensitive. If your hormones are in a funk and you just happen to be sad one day, you're emotional AND sensitive. Let me tell you something that goes against everything people have probably ever told you. Being emotional and are very, very good things. Your ability to empathize, sympathize and sensitize yourself to your own situation and to others' situations is a true gift that many people don't possess, therefore many people do not understand. Never let someone's negativity towards this gift of yours. We are all guilty of bashing something that is unfamiliar to us: something that is different. But take pride in knowing God granted this special gift to you because He believes you will use it to make a difference someday, somehow. This is not a valid email, please try again. This gift of yours was meant to be utilized. It would not be a part of you, if you were not meant to use it. Because of this gift, you will change someone's life someday. You might be the only person that takes a little extra time to listen to someone's struggle when the rest of the world turns their backs. In a world where a six figure income is a significant determinant in the career someone pursues, you might be one of the few who decides to donate your time for no income at all. You might be the first friend someone thinks to call when they get good news, simply because they know you will be happy for them. You might be an incredible mother who takes too much time to nurture and raise beautiful children who will one day change the world. To feel everything with every single part of your being is a truly wonderful thing. What a beautiful thing! Could you imagine being the opposite of these things? Both are unhealthy, both aren't nearly as satisfying, and neither will get you anywhere worth going in life. Imagine how much richer your life is because you love other's so hard. It might mean more heartache, but the reward is always worth the risk. Imagine how much richer your life is because you are overly appreciative of the beauty a simple sunset brings. Imagine how much richer your life is because you can be moved to tears by the lessons of someone else's story. Embrace every part of who you are and be just that 100%. There will be you for the size of your heart. Feel sorry for them. There are people who are dishonest. There are people who are manipulative. There are people who are downright malicious. How did you get so old in one night? That is what happened to Naomi Jacobs. She woke up one day, having forgotten 17 years of her life. She could not recognize her own 10-year-old son because she never remembered having him. This phenomenon is called the transient global amnesia. TGA is a form of retrograde amnesia and it was first reported by Morris Bender in 1956. It most commonly affects people between the ages of 56 and 75. It affects about five in 100,000 people in Britain and this increases to 23 for people over 50. This is not a valid email, please try again. The characteristics include bewilderment and sudden short-term memory loss. It is usually brought on because of emotional or physical stress. Normally, hours, days or weeks of exhaustion from worrying or life lead to a TGA attack. In the case of Naomi Jacobs, she was dealing with a lot of emotional stress. Her diaries helped her realize the problems she was coping with that led to the TGA. She had previously been diagnosed with psychotic and bipolar episodes and she was using marijuana and cocaine to help her deal with her life. She'd been in an abusive relationship and did not have many good friends. She had even been sexually and physically abused. She was juggling being a single mother, owner of a holistic therapy business and a student getting a degree in psychology. TGA episodes tend to occur spontaneously and last for several hours. There is a very small chance of prolonged or permanent memory loss. In the case of Naomi Jacobs, the TGA lasted for eight weeks, but getting to the bottom of it took her almost two years. Her diary helped her to jog her memory and she also looked at the news and everything to catch up with what had happened in the world. The memories started coming back slowly through flashbacks. She had her first flashback after three days. One thing about people suffering from TGA is that they ask repetitive and relevant questions using the same innovation and expression. They also tend to retain their semantic memory. For example, they would remember how to drive though they may not remember the experience of learning how to drive. Naomi Jason had the same thing. She could remember phone numbers which helped her get help , how to drive a car, how to use cash. Her emotional memory, though, was completely gone. She didn't even remember giving birth to her son. They are also not able to form new memories during the time of the TGA. The person is aware of their memory loss, which causes an increase in anxiety and stress. This is what happened with Naomi Jacob. She woke up in a strange world where so much technology that she did not remember being created, existed. She could not remember her own son. She believed that sleeping would help bring her memory back and it would be fine in a few days, so she avoided going to the doctor. There is still no cure for TGA. The memory just comes back eventually from the support of family and loved ones. Naomi Jacobs had the support of her friends and sister who helped her remember what had happened by telling her stories. Her friend, Katie, was the first person she contacted, as that was the phone number she could think of. She helped her get in touch with her sister, who explained what adult Naomi's life was like. Naomi Jacobs had been living a tough life before the incident, but slowly she regained her memory.
