it's not time for insults but give advice, nor be everybody dey know finish na him make person dey come seek advice, pardon my digression my story goes thus, it's going to be a long read, pls I need your patience.
I have gone to church to seek help, changed my lifestyle begged for mercy and all regarding this issue yet nothing don come out, I've lost hope and I feel like killing myself,you see i'm the first of 13 kids my mum has 8 girls in bid to have a boy child popsy go village go born extra girls come make us 13 girls, I was given the opportunity to go to the university but severe case of sexual harassment nor allow me graduate even after my extra year(story for another day).
My dad later fell sick and died in my final year, I too fell sick and almost died, I had a mysterious health challenge that I became paralysed if not that God was just faithful, my sickness cost a fortune that my mum went broke upon my discharge, they had sold everything to save my life; from medical treatment, to native treatment, to different prayer groups and the lord prevailed in my case.
When I recovered fully after 6months of intensive treatment,I hit the streets with my immediate younger sister to become runs girls, because truth be told life hard small for warri, we were in serious debt and my mum had become hypertensive all 13 girls lives with my mum, my step mum ran away without her kids, I had to grow up immediately and became the burden bearer, we started doing runs just to pay up all the debts from one cooperative to another and at least feed the house and train the younger ones.
My mum is always sick, sometimes I run away from home for weeks to hide from responsibilities but I pity my younger sister and my mum and come back home, I wanted to learn a skill but it's either the money will not be available or when I get it problem go carry am go, I have two really successful men on my case asking me to give birth for them before they will assist me financially, but I can't because I doubt if marriage will come out of it, besides these guys are well over 20 years my senior, I know say suffer dey but e never reach for me to born for my papa age grade and both men are divorced with kids.
My life looks stagnant no forward no backward the younger guys are always trying to use and dump me, make me cook clean sleep with me and marry someone else in the end, it got to a point i denied my younger ones for a guy because i looked like a liability, he still didn't marry me, I and my sis decided to go back to God and become celibate, we started serving God fully the days of severe hunger we go force the kids say na fasting, we did menial jobs i even come to in house news everyday just to check for job opening everyday but it's mostly graduate qualification.
Currently I relocated everyone to my village before warri boys go take take advantage of my siblings, I decided to stay with my former course mate as her help, she pays me 20k every month, which I don't mind but her husband is on my case to sleep with me, he says I'm too old to live with them, the matter tire me my brain don full, I don't know where to start from, I'm confused my mum is sick again I don't pick their calls anymore as I have no stories to tell:
